11/03/09
Sorry, NO actual workout today. And as my favorite saying goes "Everything Happens For a Reason".
Reason: I had to do my fit test and my measurements for my Chalean Extreme adventure. An ass kicking it better be. I had to photograph myself tonight. I'm disgusted. Though my body fat % is at 19.6% -considered lean on the scale, I'm just .. yuck. I want my body back from 2006. I'd post it but i think my FH would be a bit disappointed in me if i did that.
Though i "feel" better and stronger since starting the TMT, i'm not happy AT ALL with the way i look right now. Not to down play TMT by any means. I do realize results like those, in their programs don't happen over night. I guess i'm trying to say i need to kick it up a notch and i'm hoping the notch of CX is what will help push me over that "omg i'm gross" feeling to "getting better!"
I hope that in 30 days when i have to re-do my stats and pics, that i can see that I'm making substantial improvements, or i will be very discouraged. I feel like i got kicked in the gut a little tonight. Pictures don't lie, you can see it in my eyes and on my face that I'm not happy and have very low self esteem right now.
So, again, i ask you to take the journey with me for the next 90 days. The wedding is about 206 days away and that means 90 + 90 = 180 days of Chalene and Tony H ass kicking.... I'm up for it.. i just hope my body decides to conform!
