In more ways than one!
I had a visit with the Doc tonight to see how I'm doing.
I gave her the update and also mentioned my fascination to the shows "Hoarders", and "Obsessed", and how they actually have therapists with them to do exposures, which is considered CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy-therapy that exposes you to your fear and you eventually desensitize to it). Wow i should have kept my trap shut because now I have to do it. Difference: my therapist won't be with me for the exposures, which is exactly what i spoke about in my last post.
OK, so I'm all for getting better and all, but now i went from a relaxed condition to having elevated anxiety. So now she wants me to go Play in Traffic literally so to speak. She wants me to do it WHEN I'm in a relaxed state. Are ya kidding? i can barely get to the grocery store by myself now-a-days, let alone just up and rushing into rush-hour-traffic SOMEWHERE.
Not only that, but i have to change my routine.. damnit.
I have to wake up and have my morning breakfast, then do 30 minutes of Yoga. No matter how badly i want to throw a load of laundry in or get started on housework or something, i have to forget all of that and do those two things first. It's all a damn test i tell ya.. She wants to see how i react to switching of my routine. Then next week she's going to flippin change it again i know it, and it's not going to be pretty either. The one thing she wants me to refrain from is any aerobic activity and weight lifting. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!@#%^#!!!!
I understand WHY and all, but damn really?! Oh well, it's for the greater good i guess, and it's just temporary. Not that I'm heavy into working out right now anyway (see post titled: Stagnant)
Tomorrow I get to start my new routine day, and LOTS of studying.. Chapter 4 is really killing me.
(Formerly My Wedding Workout)
